For I know the plans I have for you... says the Lord!

Well look at this... I am posting!

So I think I got it all figured out, but I really am just blowing smoke out of my mouth. I know that you have a plan, and a time, and something else that will go on the end of this sentense to make it rhyme. But I sit and think to myself, why oh why God, would you put so much on my plate and make me stay up late making me think and hate what I am and why I am out of sorts and shape. It has become relevant to me that you have a plan and a desinty and all is coming clearer like I knew it would be. I am so greatful for some clarity in this time of insanity and although I still doubt you never fail to shout out my name and reminde from which direction I came. That point that I started at that you wont let me forget, that place where it all began where you let your own children put nails in your hands. That place where you died and were given viniger and wine. That place where you made what was broken whole, that place that satisfied what was missing in my soul. 


I wrote this tonight and was really giving some thought to the future. God has been revealing to me what I need to be doing with my life slowly, and I am starting to get an idea I think. 

Jeremiah 29:11

New International Version (NIV)

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Bam. For those of you who are not sure what is going on in life. Read this verse and take it to heart.... It really can make a difference.

Hopefully I can post more guys. Good morning XP

Truth is

So I kinda feel like I should post this and get this off my chest.

I know I'm not fat, but I seriously get down about how I look all the time. I constantly am being told I'm a cute kid and all, but I wish I was thin, I wish I never had to worry about my weight. I wish I could throw a shirt on that made me look big but not care because I knew I was thin. I wish I didn't have a custom wardrobe that fit me the way I want to look. I wish every time I walk infront of a mirror I have to fix the way I look.

I guess I want to lose this habit and or obsession but I don't know how. I wish I could look the way I want to look. This brings me to God I guess... God doesnt care, he made me perfect... I guess I need to remember that.

Try saying bold without trembling

So I think that it's really cool getting to read through the Psalms and just see how bold David is. I have been reading and I think the biggest thing that has stuck out to me is the idea of David having joy through all of his trials. If we were to look at every trial with a depressed look, we would walk around depressed our entire lives.

My pastor said that he gets irritated with Christians that just constantly say that they are depressed because they are "under attack." And this may be true, but this has made me mad forever. We are in the family of Christ and Jesus came down and gave his life for me. So what kind of respect are we giving him if we walk around like the world is just a boring depressing cold place.

As Paul says, I am the chief of sinners. I go through my days sinning at all times, but that does not make me a depressed person guys! I mean sure, at times I get down, but who doesn't? It's all about where you go from there. So if you are one of those people who just get down all the time whenever things are not going perfect, then you will be like that forever until you change. You see, when you decided to follow God, you stepped into a battle field so there will always be hard times, and if you get depressed when you are going through hard times, you will be depressed a lot.

I challenge you to look at David's stories and Psalms and see what you can learn from the way he approaches his problems, and God.

Have a great day everyone.

Let us think

So, I have not been posting... and I keep saying to myself that I am too busy but that is a horrible excuse. Honestly, after camp I have been thinking and striving to do better as a person and I am posting tonight because I need to. Here I go... lets see what happens.

Tonight I fell, I stumbled... whatever you want to call it... I mean, when I got home I was so high on God, I thought it would never end... and then when I fell down from that high for a while, that is when the devil struck.. I sit here thinking to myself... why, why would I let this happen. Then I remember what my pastor said "Worship whenever." He said it is best to worship when we have fallen... so I sit.. and worship... and listen... and now I am blogging to let out what is in my head.

I was reading Psalm 5 so that is where all these quotes are gonna come from. You see, what I find interesting is, David just tells God what to do, he says "Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God." He is not being rude, he is just saying it... and I think we all need to say that. Because I needed help tonight... and I never got it.. but I never really asked. You see... when something overwhelms you like that... I mean, some drug addicts can't help themselves, and just like with drugs, pornography is addictive. And it hurts when you fall... I know I am getting better, but it's just when is that day gonna come that I don't have to fight it.

It says "You are not a God who takes pleasure in evil...You destroy those who tell lies..." yet it goes on to say "but I, by your great mercy will come into your house." I don't know about you but that is a breath of fresh air... and I can just say thank you God for that.

I could go on and on.. but this post is mainly for me... I am asking for prayer, for real! I need it... many do. I ask that you pray for all men and women who struggle with it... because its out there... so please pray! Please! this is not joke.... So I guess that is where I leave you all tonight... Just with the knowledge that it is only by grace that we get to come into God's house...

Goodnight everyone..

Camp de la 2011

First day of camp was just.... WOW! Okay, I was stressing and running on 2 hours of sleep maybe, but somehow I was able to make it through teaching hip hop, leading two worship sets, teaching a bible study and just running that entire day. So lets start from the beginning and I will take you along on this wonderful adventure I had over the past weekend.

First off. When we got up I was really stressed out and under a lot of attack, but by the end of the first worship practice I knew that things were gonna go up hill. As we led worship, God was there from the start. When we did our first step, God was in the room so powerfully, and people were just crying and worshiping with everything they had. By the end of the day, our second set topped that; crazy right! So then came my bible study.

I was teaching on sections of the Passion of the Christ. I really felt it was important for us as a team to watch because when we present, we are portraying what happened to Jesus.... and it was not a happy story. When I got up to teach, all I had were 5 verses and the times I wanted the movie to be played.... but God worked through me so powerfully and by the end of the night I just put on my iPod and we just listened and worshiped together... Praise God!

Saturday went very smoothly just as Friday, God showed up powerfully all the time and I even shared one of the songs I wrote at sharing time. By Sunday everyone was exhausted but on fire for God. I could go on and on about camp but it just wouldn't have the same effect. I think I walked away from that camp with two major things that have changed my life. One being that I am growing up! I know that there are people out there (like me) who just don't want to grow up. But I realized that if I am going to be the Man of God that God wants me to be, I gotta become a Man! I also left with a new take on worship, I left feeling God so powerfully that I could never go back to any other way of worship.

I guess I leave you with the request to pray for me and my team so that we may not lose this fire we have caught, and that we could withstand any attack we are experiencing because I know we all are. I actually just realized something while typing, I discovered the cycle. You see I was being tempted... and I realized, what the devil does is, tempts, we fall, then he makes us feel awful about what we did.... and feel unworthy... idk... that was something that just came into my head... have a great night you all, God bless! :)

Camp is a'comin

Well guys, I don't have much time to post due to my amazing Action camp coming up! I am so excited to go. I am still at a loss as to how I am gonna teach the lesson, lead worship, do classes and have a good time. I know however that God is in control and it will all work out! :)

Honestly, I think that this camp is going to be amazing because the entire goal of camp is to just gain a better understanding of worship. I mean, I know how to worship man, but if I could gain even more... idk how it would be possible, but I am so stoked for that mountain top experience.

I think that what I want to throw out tonight is... we can worship WHENEVER. I mean I have already said this, but in the hole process of getting things together for camp, I have been worshiping A LOT! But when practicing, it seems like it isn't exactly worship... but all that to say, I am starting to ramble... lol... kinda happens when I am super tired and still have stuff to do.

I guess I ask that you also throw out your prayers to me, so that camp runs soothly and I will just come back even MORE on fire; and that you would pray for others that are going, along with a safe travel and all up. I hope to have a lot to post about when I get back. But for now, GNIGHT!

Well I can rebuild the temple in two days.... not

So most Christians know that Jesus said that he would "destroy the temple and raise it up in three days." Now in many cases I go "oh yeah, I know that, been there, I know the story." But MAN, it's so hard to look into the fact that Jesus, God, whatever, DIED... and the came back to life! Uhg... I mean, I can't say this enough, it's such a crazy thought, I type this and just constantly go over it in my head.

So where does this leave us? I mean, it's obvious that Jesus did indeed rebuild the temple, but how does that apply to our lives? Well the bible says that our bodies are temples and that God dwells in us, so in everything we do, we are the house of God, so when we do something that hurts our bodies on purpose, it is like vandalizing God's temple.

I mean, how awesome is it that we, humans, sinful beings, have the opportunity to house God! Isn't God just awesome like that? Just constantly letting us have what we don't deserve... blessing us when we don't deserve or need it... man.. it is just insane!

In many cases, all my posts are linked and can be tied back to many different things. I honestly think that everything in the Bible can be tied to something else in the Bible, and most things stem from certain other things. I honestly feel that in this topic, the worst things that one could do to their body's is abuse alcohol, do drugs, or watch pornography.

I walk around and see people struggling every day, I see people who think "I am the only one" and that is so wrong! I know what its like guys, every day I wake up and every day all the time I am tempted, I have, am, and always will struggle with pornography, and you know what? God loves me, no matter what. It's not like I have to be ashamed or hide something about me that is just something that I have done. God looks at me with eyes of now, not of what I did in the past, I am not judged based on what I have done wrong yesterday, once I ask for that forgiveness... God is always welcoming me with arms wide open.

Romans 6 says "shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means!" This means that I can't go around sinning expecting God to forgive me. That is not what having a relationship with God about guys! It is so much more than that!

What I leave you with is, you don't struggle alone, God is there for you, he loves you, and when you are ready to turn to him, he will always be there for you. God won't be taken advantage of, but he does love you so very much... and there is nobody that can top his love.

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God Bless Guys!